So much of my energy goes into retaining and knowing things. Trying to fill up my head with knowledge and my heart with Godly wisdom. It not that i think these things are bad in themselves but I’m beginning to ask myself why. I read the story the other night of Jesus healing some men who had leprosy and how only one of those men came back to thank him. It’s a story i know. So I closed my Bible and eyes and went to sleep. I think what I tend to do is fill myself up so much that i get bored with God. When his word is supposed to flow through me like a river, never filling but always rushing. Freely I am given so freely I should give. It’s almost like Gods starting to kick away the dam.
(Redemption came through a biography that i haven’t read yet. I went to Powell’s and for some unknown reason wanted to look up books on DL Moody, a powerful man of God from the 1800’s. I found a book that was an old hardback and at least 300 yellow pages long so i picked it up. There was a newer version but i wanted to look more intellectual so i bought the old one. I realized as I walked out of the bookstore that I was reading to fill my head again and the book God had just placed in my hand was one of the most powerful Christian testimonies of our age about a man who poured himself out …)